April 14, 2016: Time to Launch (Part II of III)
I love this quote. Our story is our very own. The key is that we own it and learn from it. And then with that great knowledge, we script our own ending.
My 90 days+ off gave me the piece of mind to reflect on my journey to date. My work life. My home life. My faith life. I spent a lot of time carefully reflecting on my past. With my main goal to best determine my purpose in life, this perspective was vital. My quest to fulfill my purpose meant owning my story.
Over a conversation with my brother last weekend, I was reminded that my siblings and I have been paying into the Social Security system since the mid-70's. Work and experience in a variety of endeavors is not something lacking with the Wagner kids. We walked beans as soon as we were old enough to go to school. Before I was out of high school I had babysat extensively, detassled corn, worked at a small town drive-in and waitressed at a popular local steakhouse.
I had a checking account since I was old enough to write. My dad made sure of that. In order to teach us the value the dollar, we did chores at his barbershop and earned an allowance. We were paid well, but would manage our own money; writing checks for everything from our school lunches to uniforms.
I vividly remember the introduction of the ATM machine in the early 80's. I would make great money in tips at the steakhouse, giving up my weekend nights for this profitable work. With smock on, soiled from a night of hard work, I would deposit my tips into the machine, reveling in the deposit receipt spit out to me as a reminder of my growing checking account balance.
My 2:00 a.m. trips to a bank ATM with cash overflowing from my pockets would probably be frowned upon today. Back then I never gave it a second thought.
Dad taught me a lot about money. Some of the greatest lessons were by being told 'no'. Monies weren't spent before earned and saving for a rainy day was a must.
Many have questioned my ability to take time off from work without financial distress. I have found myself puzzled by the frequent puzzlement of others. I assumed most have had the same fiscal responsibility lessons that were taught to me.
A great piece of advice to others is just that. Live simply and save for a rainy day. You have no clue when the rain showers are going to hit. And financial security gives you greater opportunity to seek what you want in life without settling. Financial insecurity is like handcuffs on your wrists.
The work ethic taught to me has been equally invaluable. Because my story includes a hugely varied skill set with experiences in many areas, I have had no fear on my work future. The key is choosing the ideal work situation. One that is in alignment with my values, life purpose, and talents. And the people who I collaborate with are just as important as the type of work I perform.
An Aha moment I had was on a trip to New York with friends last December. This was just days after I left my last position. With many people sending me words of support and encouragement, I sensed worry. But strangely, I had none.
Sitting at lunch in Chinatown, my friend told the story of the last time she frequented the same restaurant. It was for a 50th birthday party for her dear friend, Lu. Her description of Lu was that of a gorgeous, but aging, Asian supermodel. Her friends expressed concern at the birthday party on what Lu would do for a living as her jobs would soon be given the next generation Asian supermodel. And then my friend made a statement that resonated with me and I have thought of often during my time off.
"Everyone is worried about Lu, but Lu. Although she doesn't know what she's going to do, she isn't worried a bit about her future."
After hearing this statement, I didn't give my lack of worrying another thought. I knew all would not only be good, but better. I get to write my brave ending. And although an Asian supermodel is not a viable option for me, I do have many options and skills of which I can contribute. The difficult part is choosing which one.
An example of this filter is to the left. Each line item from my Experiences to Pathways includes a deep dive on what defines me as a person. 'If there is a red, it is dead.'
The self-awareness I gained through this process has been invaluable for my future decision-making. It has also shed a lot of light on why past experiences were great or not so great. I allowed too many 'reds' to pass by my filter and into my life.
Through my LifePlan process, I documented the key turning points in my life and how they affected my five life domains of family, career, personal, faith, and community.
I have found that too many people only focus on the one domain that is their concern at that point in time. If I were to only focus on my career without taking into account the other equally important pieces to my life, I would have never received the clarity in purpose that I was seeking. Here is a visual of my highs and lows to date. I am sure I am not alone in having this visual of life looking like a roller coaster...
(This is Part II of III part blog post series...)